So what are you supposed to do when your house of cards come crashing down? I’ve had shows this past week and even though Shon keeps promising that he’ll show up, he never does. Sometimes I wish that he’d be honest with me and let me know how he really feels about my career and my goals in general, but every time I bring the conversation up, he finds a way to jump to the next subject and we never make it back around to whether or not my dreams are supported.
Monthly Archives: July 2010
Amara’s World~5
He walked right in my house after being out all night, yet again, and kissed me just as hard as he could. Sounds so romantic now that I write it, yet his breath smelled as if he’d kept his mouth shut for the past hour and a half. I felt so violated and offended I didn’t know what to do. We’re at a critical point in our relationship and to abruptly push him away and have a moment of telling him how horrid his mouth smells and tastes…I believe I’d rather just deal with it. That should fall into the category of sacrifice. That cute little word that people like to throw around when they talk about relationships that turns out to not be as passionate and over the top as it sounds. I felt like I’d been raped in the mouth.
Amara’s World~4
Everything that a woman could ever ask for in a man. Caring, considerate, self-made and fine. Yet there’s always something missing. I don’t want to sound like one of those women that has no idea what she wants in a relationship, or even what she wants in life, but I just can’t get settled.
Amara’s World~3
Amara’s World~2
I love him. I honestly do, but I just can’t seem to shake these dreams. Every night I go to bed with pleasant thoughts and somewhere around 4 in the morning, the same dreams starts where it left off.
Amara’s World~1
I woke up this morning with lots to do. I got a call from my manager Josh talking about a show that he has booked next month. I’ve been working non stop for the past two months. One show after another.
Building a Future
I’ve been back in school and since then I’ve started my online boutique. All of this put my writing on hold and as much as I am excited by all of these new opportunities I wouldn’t feel complete without finishing my books. So, I’ll be writing episodes via this page. My daily thoughts on random things can now be found on twitter @Margaret_Ellen . The first installation of Amara’s World begins Tomorrow.
Staycation Reflection
Doing things on your own makes you appreciate life. Time doesn’t seem to fly by as it usually seems. Just you and your Creator vibing out to the rythm of your own drum.
Today was my first day alone in 7 years. I am so blessed to be able to take some time for myself. As I get back to sleep in preparation for my spa day I appreciate all that matters most. Life is good