There are times I wonder if I missed the good parts of life. I tried marriage, that was beyond a disaster. The thought of having a child in the midst of the past five years makes me shudder. Yet there are so many people that get it done. It then brings me to the question, Am I selfish?
I do my best to be there for others and volunteer in the community, but generally that’s on my own terms. Could I find it in myself to be there day and night for another person even when I don’t feel like it? There was a time (and it fluctuates as the years go by) that I would get a warm and fuzzy feeling when my mind bounced around the notion. However, it simply moved me to blog. It’s like that feeling when you flick a lighter that’s finally empty. I think I missed the train on that part of life.
I’m not sure who’s left following this blog if anyone. I’m sure if you’re reading this you probably didn’t remember you clicked the button so long ago. But, don’t pass up on the good stuff in life. Granted, you may get the dream job and no you won’t have to vacuum crumbs from weird places… but it’s a strange feeling to be the only one left without any commitments. I guess what I’m saying is don’t be the last one out of your group of friends. You end up knowing about Nickelodeon characters anyway from all the Godkids. 🙂
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